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Back to December, our song.


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masih inget banget percakapan dulu.. dulu, 14 desember 2012.
aku bilang, intinya jadian bulan desember itu enak. Kalo putus bakalan ngepasi lagu. Back to December by Taylor Swift.
terus kamu jawab, intinya emangnya kita bakalan putus? enggak kan. 
But it happens.. so enjoy the song! :)
I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family?
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.
Because the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind.
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,
Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night –
The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.
All the time.

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Akhirnya bisa kayak biasanya lagi. Bener - bener sedikitpun gak kepikiran.
tiap hari rasanya tambah jauh. Tapi iya, bener katamu. Aku terimakasih banget sama kamu.
Jujur aku seneng banget malahan.
Tapi ada yang aneh. Makin hari ada perasaan gak enak. Apa? Benci. Iya.
Semakin sering aku nginget - nginget kejadian dulu, aku jadi tambah tambah tambah sebel.
Rasanya udah cukup. Cukup muak.
Mungkin aku pernah bilang kalo aku gak akan punya alesan buat benci sama kamu.
Tapi sekarang aku gak punya alesan lagi buat nggak benci sama kamu.
Aku ngrasa rendah banget dulu, gara - gara memohon - mohon sama kamu. Seolah - olah aku tu hina banget di depanmu.
Mungkin aku emang udah maafin kamu, tapi bukan berarti aku gak marah. Gak sengit sama kamu. Banget malah :)

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recent drawings agaaain!


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mau ngepost dua gambaran akhir akhir ini. Wah ternyata suasana hati ngaruh sama gambaran juga.
Gambaran jadi lebih...lebih apa yaa.. hahaha ._.
ini nih yang pertama.


ini terinspirasi dari gambar di deviantArt, gak tau pengean aja nggambar yang kayak gini gini. Mumpung lagi gak hawa gambar yang lucu lucu. Beginner banget nih gambar Momon gini :D tangan burungnya aja keple banget gitu -___-


nah ini yang kedua. Bisa dibilang ini... apa ya. Ya apa? hahaha ._. gaje ah. I think I just drew you. Somebody that I used to know. Biasanya aku yang tau semuanya. Sempet tau semuanya tentang kamu. Sekarang udah gak lagi. Hahaha. That's you playing your piano. With your long hair or maybe it's short now. Daaaan banyak lagi arti 'tersembunyi' dari gambar ini. Huahahaha alay tenan to aku ._.

Wah kangen banget gambar sesuatu yang bertuliskan 'Fourteen' or something related to us.
I miss you okay? I miss us. It's just..........sad.
But I'm trying to be as strong as I can be.
I'm trying to let you go. I'm trying very hard......... :)
HALO NGOPO IKI DADI GALAU. OKE BYE! :D

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Dora the Explolor by XII IS 3


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Tugas drama Basa Jawa akhirnya kelaaaaar. Hah gila.
Ngakak paraaaaah =)) ceritanya simple simple, gak mutu gak mutu.
kelompokku kedapetan episode 2. Dora the Explolor di LASRI alias Alas Ngeri ._.
Caca yang jadi doranya, Rendhy jadi Boots, Ninis jadi ransel, Fitri jadi peta. Aku jadi swiper :D
Dramaku nyak nyakan banget, sengak sengakan tok isine -__- Astaghfirullaaaah. Tapi bikin geli banget.
Semuanya dramanya geli geli banget. Mana propertiesnya kayak anak TK pula. Bikin properties sendiri loooh :3 Bikin pohon - pohonan, awan - awanan, dll.
Kata temen - temen I'm the best Swiper :p muahahaha. Gara - gara ke-ngoho-an Rencil yang bener - bener out of text. -_________- edan ngisin - ngisinke tenan.
Dan pekok e aku kepancing jal -_- betapa sungguh memalukan. Mana di video lagi sama temen - temen. Hes jan.
R : "wah Per, mbok kowe ki ojo nyolongan barange uwong wae to... mbok kala - kala nyolong atine.. ar**** HAHAHA" Ish pret tenan -_____-
dan pekok buanget malah tak jawab. "Wah ha kene ki mung di*****ke je bwos!" 
Aku kok iso se - emosional kuwi yho -__-a
heran. We jebul kuwi ditonton karo wong akeh banget. Gak cuma bu dian, gak cuma temen-temen kelas.
Ada ppl sama adek kelas juga. Apik tenan. 
But afterall.... It's a very nice and the best day since you left.
Jadi terhibur. Terhibur banget.
Seneng banget rasana punya temen baru.. punya keluarga baru.. punya sahabat baru.. :)
Oh kelasku sekarang juga udah punya nama kelas. Al Kautsar o:) Subhanallah :3

ini lhooo 2 foto dari sekian banyak foto. Foto yang lain masih di tab, males mindahnya ke lepi :D
ituuu pojok kiri sendiri ada Bayu, dia jadi Dora di episode ke 3. Banci banget ya -_-
terus sampingnya Bayu ada Caca, Dora dari kelompokku. Sampingnya Caca aku, terus Ipul jadi Diego ._. Sampingnya ipul ada Dipa, Bootsnya kelompok 3. Sampingnya ada Udin jadi Diego juga :D
ah asik wes pokokmen :3

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FINALLY!


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akhirnya... lega. Akhirnya udah tau sebenernya ada apa..
Akhirnya... Alhamdulillah. Sekarang mata bener bener udah kebuka. Makasih sarah {}
Makasih anak anak sos 3 semangatnya, kalian emaaaaaang so sweet semua! {}
Ya Allah.. makasih buanget lah. Sadar juga..
Ternyata... :)))) emang painful banget denger kenyataan tadi. But a least, aku jadi tau semuanya.
I'm not good enough for you? Yes I'm too DAMN good for you.
DAMN IT! I love this day.
Even I've to cry for hours today... but well.... I promise, no more tears have to fall again because of you.
aku malah beterimakasih banget hal ini kejadian...
Thank you to all of ya! {}

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how are you?


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It's been 17 days since you left. How are you?
I've been crying every night since the day you went away.
why i never see you again like..... forever?
I miss that moment when you came to my class, we went home together...you held my hands tight.
and i still keep wondering why.. you become somebody that i used to know?
well... i hope you're fine, have a better life and condition :)
you know... I will never hate you.. for any reasons...
I'll be waiting for you....
so please... I'll be very happy if you just..... nevermind.

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second family


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my friends are my second family.
siang ini mampir ke Ravega. Niatnya cuma mau ngeprint surat lamaran ppa BCA.
bener bener sebel dibuat nangis sama mbak nita sama mas jangkung.
tapi Alhamdulillah rasane jadi lebih lega banget..
baru aja nyampe, mbak nita udah tanya aja.. Udah ngomongin kalo rupaku suwung banget.
mbak nita bener bener udah apal, dan udah bisa nebak kenapa.
lagi lagi disuruh cerita... nangis lagi.
ngeselin lagi, mbak nita bukannya gimana gimana malah ngatain "you think you're loyal? you're just stupid"
terus dikandan - kandani banyak banget sama mbak nita tadi... ya ampun sedih banget rasane.
iya emang yang diomongin mbak nita siang ini bener semuanya.. ya ampun.
ini nih, one of my weakness. Jadi bego & buta pikiran.. Masih aja ngeyel buat ikhlas.
masa depan ki masih panjang yak... Panjang banget.
ujung - ujungnya mbak nita bilang dia gak bisa ngasih advice apa - apa. Percuma katanya.
Aku ndengerin, tapi gak bisa ngejalaninnya. Katanya bakalan keulang lagi yang dulu.
Bakalan jadi orang suwung yang kebingungan nyari jalan dan bakalan sadar buat waktu yang lama.
Gak ada yang bisa nyadarin sekarang, tapi besok bakalan sadar sendiri.
what do i need? times, she said.
thanks mbak nita aaaa{}

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gini nih kalo udah malem. Galau gak karuan.. rasane beda banget sama kalo lagi ada di luar rumah, main sama temen temen. Beda banget rasanya kalo cuma sendirian di dalem kamar gini. Pikiran awut awutan. Suwung tenan. Pengen gitu, tiap malem keluar kemana gituuu sampe bener bener ngantuk. Tapi kasian umi juga di rumah. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

DAMN I MISS YOU SO FUCKIN BADLY!!!! 

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In case when you're left by...


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1. do not hate them for it, they're on your journey too.
2. understand that sometimes you will be a bandage caressing a temporary wound or you will be a pinnacle of permanency rooted deeply in their heart. Accept that you do this to people too.
3. Do not step on your feet trying to find a rhythm you're not meant to follow.
4. Do not let it harden you, continue to love.
5. People use words as anchors to latch onto bits of you and when they leave remind yourself that the sea never bled itself dry because a ship left it.
6. Write the nastiest letter and burn it.
7. Yes, they may have illuminated pieces of you that you were unaware existed. But now you do and they're not the last person to remind you.
8. Dizzy yourself with everything you love.
9. Set all that anger ablaze, you're wasting your time sifting through it.
10. Internalize the fact that you were still breathing before you met them.
11. Forgive them. :)

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you said, eh no. you retweeted that "Somewhere in this world there is one person who is perfect for you. You’ll almost certainly never meet."
so what's that? you lied to me? Yes, I'm not perfect enough for you. But at least, respect me. Respect us, for what we had for all this time.
well I'm sorry for being soooo imperfect.
Thalia emang bener, kenapa aku sering sakit hati masalah kayak gini. Gara - gara aku cen terlalu mengagung - agungkan orang yang tak senengin. Harusnya gak perlu kayak gitu.
sekarang aku ngerasa pekok aja. Aku gak pernah lho bohong sama kamu masalah perasaan selama ini.
tapi kenapa to, kamu kayak gitu.
aku cuma sakit hati aja, kamu ng-retweet quotes kayak gitu.
kayak seolah - olah kamu mbukak semuanya kalo selama ini you're pretending, your love?is it fake?. :)

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