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1. do not hate them for it, they're on your journey too.
2. understand that sometimes you will be a bandage caressing a temporary wound or you will be a pinnacle of permanency rooted deeply in their heart. Accept that you do this to people too.
3. Do not step on your feet trying to find a rhythm you're not meant to follow.
4. Do not let it harden you, continue to love.
5. People use words as anchors to latch onto bits of you and when they leave remind yourself that the sea never bled itself dry because a ship left it.
6. Write the nastiest letter and burn it.
7. Yes, they may have illuminated pieces of you that you were unaware existed. But now you do and they're not the last person to remind you.
8. Dizzy yourself with everything you love.
9. Set all that anger ablaze, you're wasting your time sifting through it.
10. Internalize the fact that you were still breathing before you met them.
11. Forgive them. :)


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you said, eh no. you retweeted that "Somewhere in this world there is one person who is perfect for you. You’ll almost certainly never meet."
so what's that? you lied to me? Yes, I'm not perfect enough for you. But at least, respect me. Respect us, for what we had for all this time.
well I'm sorry for being soooo imperfect.
Thalia emang bener, kenapa aku sering sakit hati masalah kayak gini. Gara - gara aku cen terlalu mengagung - agungkan orang yang tak senengin. Harusnya gak perlu kayak gitu.
sekarang aku ngerasa pekok aja. Aku gak pernah lho bohong sama kamu masalah perasaan selama ini.
tapi kenapa to, kamu kayak gitu.
aku cuma sakit hati aja, kamu ng-retweet quotes kayak gitu.
kayak seolah - olah kamu mbukak semuanya kalo selama ini you're pretending, your love?is it fake?. :)


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First, you think the worst is a broken heart
What's gonna kill you is the second part
and the third, is when your world splits down the middle
and fourth, you're gonna think that you fixed yourself
Fifth you see them with someone else
and the sixth, is when you admit that you may have fucked up a little.


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Gak. gak boleh kayak gini terus terusaaaan. 

Kata temen - temen, gak usah kayak gini.. Temen - temen bilang aku gak pantes kayak gini.
"Mbok ra usah galau per, rupamu ra wangun AHAHAHA"
-____-
maunya sih juga enggak kayak gini. Maunya ya biasa aja. Kenapa gitu aku harus kayak gini?
Does he really worth your tears? NO. Keep it. Keep it for something else.
But the thing is.... I can't hold it.
I miss him so much. Udah 5 hari dan masih kayak gini. Aku ki kesel le nangisi.
Aku ki keseeeeel. Tapi yo piye meneh.. Rasane ki lara buanget.
Oke it sounds alay, but hey.. if you were me.. I guarantee, You feel just the way i feel.
pengen kayak biasanya aja.. udahlah per.. He's gone.. He's gone.
He won't care, for sure he won't.
Let him go.. You're gonna be just fine.. Ini bukan pertama kalinya kan, ayo struggling kayak dulu..
Dulu aja bisa, kenapa sekarang enggak. It's okay.. :( :( :(


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DAMN YOU! 
I DO LOVE YOU FOR ALL THIS TIME!


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He loves me...
He loves me not...
He loves me...
He loves me not...
I loved you once...
You loved me not... 
I loved you twice...
But I forgot...
'I love you... But you'll never love me...'
You never loved me...
You never will...
But even so...
I love you still...
Forget the times he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name,
Remember your feelings arn't the same...
'You leave me here, with my broken heart to bleed.'
Forget the times her held your hand,
Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget those times and don't pretend,
Remember now he's just a friend...
And you think:
'Will I ever get over him, or is my heart going too carry on breaking...?'
It's weird... 
You know the end of something great is coming,
But you just want to hold on,
just so it can hurt a little more...
Sometimes you just have to let go, 
to see if this is worth holding on too...
I wish I had the guts to walk away and forget about what we had...
But I can't cause I know you won't come after me,
And I guess that hurts the most...
I will always love you.
You've always loved her,
And now I can see,
That the one in your heart,
Was never me...
All of those times you held me close,
It was her you needed and loved the most...
'I love you... Even though I KNOW you love her...'
Its hard for me to swallow my pride,
Knowing that my love was the love you denied...
'I know you don't love me, so why am I even TRYING.'
When I see you with her I force a grin,
But really my heart is breaking within...
My love for you is stronger than ever,
But I know in my heart we will never be together...
So I'm letting you go now,
With tears in my eyes, 
I'm telling my last and final...
Goodbye...
'Come what may, I will love you until my dieing day...'
I'm going to smile like nothings wrong,
Talk like everythings perfect,
Act like its just a dream,
And pretend its not hurting me...
I would do anything for you...
No one is worth the tears, 
And shouldn't make you cry...
'I cry each night, and you will never know why...'
The only thing that ever made sense, 
To me was you...

everybody hurts sometimes


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I hope It was only a nightmare.
kenapa gitu.. kenapa aku lagi.. lagi lagi aku, aku, aku, aku, aku.
aku yang kena imbasnya, aku yang rugi, aku yang kena getahnya.
aku se-nggemeske kuwi po ge dilarani...
untuk kesekian kalinya.. aku disalahi.. lagi, lagi, lagi, lagi.
kata temen - temen mending langsung ngomong empat mata.. emang iya, kayak gitu lebih enak, lebih mudeng.
tapi apa yang aku dapet? sama aja. Tambah sakit hati..
aku kasih semua yang kamu minta selama ini, aku usaha selama ini dengan harapan kamu bisa betah..
Tapi apa balesanmu? kata - katamu we satupun gak ada yang pleased buat didenger..
mungkin aku ki mung wedok pekok sek iseh wae nekani kowe sore kuwi...
aku mung berharap kowe ki.. ora koyo ngene iki...
tapi aku terlalu budeg mungkin, aku ora pengen bali sore kuwi.. aku pengen kowe narik meneh opo seng wes kok ucapke, gek aku bakalan bali.. Tapi aku wes ra tahan ngerungokke celotehanmu seng semakin nglarani.
Thanks ya Lilik, Cahyo sama Andri, you guys helped me more than I actually need even I didn't get what I want.
ternyata percuma, kemaren aku nungguin kamu sampe malem.. dengan keadaan jalan yang lagi kayak gitu. gelap banget gara - gara mati lampu se Jateng.
ternyata udah gak mungkin lagi buat mu emang.. 
edan.. your words kill me. Every word splits out from your mouth.........aaaaaaargh.
aku masih belum mudeng kenapa, kenapa kok harus kayak gini lagi..
kenapa kok aku lagi gitu...
But Thank God, ulima, ochak, unsa, teteh, afda, linda, riri, thalia, caca, filda dkk aaah walaupun kata kata kalian ki singkat - singkat, tapi makasih buanget kalian ki iso nenangke. :)
I dont understand, Ar... why. You mean world to me. You mean world...

sajak anak negro


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Aku ki sayang ro kowe sakjane.. Tapi seribu nasehat udah pasti kowe abaikan.

Kesel le ngandani secara tersirat maupun tersurat. Heran. Kok gak paham paham sih.
Kita itu kayak Sajak Anak Negro dari bukunya Agatha Christie yang judulnya And Then There Were None.
kayane dewe ki podo koyo Sajak Anak Negro kuwi, bedane dewe ra mati. Tapi ngilang.
Seng siji goro goro 'rebutan', seng siji goro goro 'dimakan buaya'.
Kecewa aku sakjane....

no social life?


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ni dia, semenjak kenaikan kelas, di kelas baru. Nek bel pulang sekolah tu rasane nano nano (?)

Senengnya ya udah gak belajar lagi, sedinya tu galau tenan mau pulang sama siapa. Mau ke parkiran sama siapa, masalahe aku lak gak bisa ngeluarin motor sendiri -_- mau main sama siapa kalo ada leisure time.
Mau main sama temen temen sak kelas yo apa ya, bukannya belum deket. Malah kita semua temenan deket lhoo :3 Opo yo, merasa awkward le ngajak -__-
Pengennya main sama 'The Rainbow' wahahahaha. But most of them are not available. Waktunya gak ngepasi. Jadi kalo udah pulang sekolah tu rasane a-u-a-u mau ngapain.. Kangen aja gitu kalo dulu kelas 11 ada yang nemenin.. Kangen aja gitu main sama mereka. Kemaren liburan aja blas gak hang out bareng. Duit selalu jadi halangan .__. Aku ya ngerasani sakjane ini salahku juga. -If you know what I mean-
Soooo. is this what they called No Social Life? 
I wish I have.. I used to have one.
Call me alay because too sensitive, cause I am.


Happy 17th Birthday!♥


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first of all.. Happy 17th Birthday to Ardian Fauzi. It's 18th of August 2013..
It's your day and may our date this afternoon was the most beautiful moment for you♥
Finally! fyuuh. sudah bisa nentuin apa kado yang sweet for his 17th birthday.
yang pertama, karna dari awal aku emang tertarik mbeliin kamu sepatu.. yes sepatu ma kemeja.
kalo diliat liat kamu belum pernah make kemeja selama ini so, aku beliin kamu kemeja warnanya abu abu. I'm very sorry for the small size :( wkwk alay.
terus sepatu casual Puma warna biru langit dan abu abu juga supaya yahh.. gak tau, keren kerenan aja (?)
and the third.........
STOP MOTION VIDEO.
baru kepikiran 7 jam sebelum kamu ulang taun buat bikin stop motion. And this is my very first time!
gak kebanyakan cingcong, aku buat dari properties yang apa adanya. Se-kreatif mungkin dan SESABAR mungkin aku bikin. Ternyata bikin stop motion itu gampang sih, iya emang capek banget. Tapi kalo menurut aku sih itu simple ya. Dari 212 foto, aku bisa bikin Stop Motion Video berdurasi 3.08 menit! Wuuuw!
Please enjoy! I just wanted to share with you readers ;;)



Sebenernya di file aslinya kualitas videonya lebih bagus. jernih. Tapi gak tau kenapa ni kok jadi burek dan tidak memuaskan .___.b
oh well... so itu dia. Video amatir yang dibuat oleh seorang amatiran like me. But after all, It's my effort to make you happy today♥
buat yang bertanya tanya lagu yang di video itu, judulnya Next Plane Home by Daniel Powter!♥





So...... Happy 17th Birthday Ar! You know i love you so much!♥